"Brandon, will you light my mellow on fire?"

I was going to post a myspace bulletin about tonight, but then I was like, "That's stupid, I can just post it on my blog" 

but then I came to blogger and instead of just posting it I read the latest blog updates

cause that's what I usually do

but I shouldn't have

even if my buzz was totally just killed, tonight was still fantastic. 

We played GAWWWD. Which is actually called something like The Truth Game, or something, but Angel renamed it for Joey and I.

You anonymously ask a person a question and they anonymously answer.

It's hard to explain.

So hilarious. 

It mostly didn't stay anonymous.

Question: Which girl in the circle are you most attracted to?

Spencer: Uh... Ryan. 

Joey and Kelsey are just about the cutest thing ever. I'm glad.

Jen came to. I'm glad. I've missed her. 

"Does anyone want water?"

Everyone says they want water.

"Maybe I should just go get the pitcher and pour it in everyones mouth. Unless someone wants to help me..."

"No, I wanna see you pour it in everyones mouth."

Jen gets pitcher of water. Brandon runs. Jen pours water into Spencer's mouth. And onto his crotch (that word is crude... I need a replacement). Water fight ensues.

We proceed to make jokes about Jen getting Spencer wet. 

Shane came, which is kind of unusual cause he agrees to stuff and then doesn't show up. Megan and I figured he actually planned to come when he asked for my address though. 

Imani didn't come. I had hoped she would, mostly so we could ask her to bring more fire wood.

Belen didn't show. I kind of expected that, but I hoped I'd be wrong. 

Jon didn't get off work until 11, so it didn't make sense for him to come by. And is now apparently glad he didn't come... *eyeroll* 

No Clacel either. 

Angel and I are recounting the evening via IM now

Chelsee Bergen

but tonight was perfect, so I wouldn't have had it any other way

Lyrics and More

Lyrics of the Day:

One by one, the days fall beside us like yellow leaves We have no conscience Oh, what we're becoming  Month by month, the rings on our tree trunks, like old wise eyes, grow wider and winter lends them a dead disguise  Now time- like an ocean knows tide - like a notion to toss about the house and lose inside the couch And piles of our thoughts run miles in the dark just tryin to get home  Age by age, we rhyme with our seasons' rehearsed routines Still turning and returning  Now I'm wide as the ocean Now I bleed roses And you are just a mark on the map of my past But I am a road I wind along alone all day until the coast

is it weird that sometimes I still get nervous when I see you?

I'm just a little bit fascinated by you. It's weird. I look at you, and sometimes I just want to keep looking until I can't any more. 

God that sounds creepy. 

I'm a really touch oriented person. Like... if I don't come into contact with people, I don't feel real. I'm constantly poking at Natasha, or 'accidentally' bumping into people, or even just adjust my foot a little so that our shoes touch. I like contact. 

I heard once that hugging releases some of the pull of gravity on two bodies- it's as close as we can get to floating. Isn't that amazing? 

Imani and Belen came to see the show today. It made me so happy. 

Lipkin and Karvenz came last night, that was cool too. Bee came. Man, I haven't seen her forever. She doesn't even know about me. Or maybe she does. I don't know. I don't even know who knows. People that I think don't know do, and people I think know don't. 

The show is over. I'm so glad. So so so glad. I'm just... tired. I wish I had one more day before going back to school, to recuperate from spring break. But actually, school won't be bad. I have Rainbow to look forward throughout the day. I can always relax there. 

Natasha told me I should go to Boston U with her and Callie. It's funny, cause when I started looking at BU I thought she would be annoyed and think that I was only doing it because she was. She's weird about stuff like that. I'd love to go to school with her. 

She says her and Callie are gonna get married in 6 years. They've apparently discussed this, got it all planned out. That makes me happy. It also makes me a little sad, because time passes so quickly. We've changed so much. There are so many things that are the same, and so many things that are completely and totally different from the way things used to be. 

She has her seventeenth birthday coming up. I have to figure out what I'm going to get her. It has to be something good. Something really good. Gifts are like... my thing. I always know what to get the people that really matter. But I just haven't thought of anything yet. I want it to be something meaningful, but I always want it to be... hopeful and happy. Maybe something about the way things have changed, and the way they've stayed the same, in all the good ways. 

I found my ipod, it was in the ONE pocket of my purse.

I should shower and then go to sleep. 

My thoughts are so scattered. 

Goodnight.