Cinders Ella

Tonight

God, I felt alive tonight.

And there weren't even any parks involved. Which is rare.

Things started out... awkward. Sitting at a table of people where I was the only person who didn't spend six weeks in rehearsal for Joseph (okay, and Callie, who always has Natasha to talk to which for the most part is all she needs). And I couldn't find anything I wanted on the menu- we went to Osaka's. When I eat sushi, it's with my family, and when we eat sushi, we eat sushi. Like... it is a roll extravaganza. Plus, all I really wanted was some french fries. Thats why I wanted to go out in the first place. At any rate.

It ended up not being awkward.
No one talks shit like theater kids, let me tell you.
Also, I am incredibly loud. I know this, but I never realize it until someone tells me to be quiet. I guess that's become my way of getting people to pay attention to me, because otherwise everyone else is talking and I never get to put things in. And I almost always have something to say, but I don't get to.

The eight of us just sat around and ate, and laughed, and talked shit, and laughed louder, and said things that are definitely going to send up to hell, and laughed some more.

Tonight was aces, the whole thing. Light crew is great. We laugh so hard. We have so much fun together. We lay on the floor, and have 'places' rolls, and just rock on.
I have a joke for you.

Some cows are standing in a field, and one of the baby cows goes up to the mother and says: Mother, why is my name Daisy?
The mother says: Because when you were little, and bunch of daisies fell on your head.
Daisy: Oh, okay.
A second baby cow approaches the mother and says: Momma, why is my name Grass?
Mother: Because, when you were born, a bunch of grass fell on your head.
Grass: Ooh.
A third baby cow comes to the mother and says: alskdfjlajsfdklajlfdkaf
Mother: Shut up Cinderblock.

Bahahahahahahaha.
We are hilarious. Comedic. Endless. We are infinite and we like it.

On the way out of the restaurant, Anthony made this joke about the Mexican man working behind the sushi bar, and Alec and I were laughing, and as we're walking into the miniparking lot of Osakas, I trip down the rampway (because it drops off) and fall onto the pole that's meant to alert you to the drop off. Sarah and Anthony kind of caught me, and I just kept laughing hysterically. Apparently Anthony did kind of the same thing a second before, but on a smaller scale so there was no catching, and no one saw him do it. I just laughed.

I looked at the clock as I got into the car, it was 11:48. On the drive home I thought about how wonderful I felt, and how it didn't seem quite possible. Usually when I feel happy, really happy, it seems like some impossible thing. Maybe because the in between time feels like so long, that it feels like it isn't possible.  Not that I'm unhappy in between, not depressed, I'm just not really happy. You have to be in the right situation, with the right people to be really happy.

Also
I'm a horrible person. I won't explain why because... well this is the internet and a public blog and I'm always the one who tells people they can't be surprised when people know stuff they post on the internet, so I'm not going to explain- in the event that I would later wish that someone didn't know.
I don't know if I would have thought it regardless, or if I only think it because someone else put the idea into my head. I mean, it's there idea, they can... keep it, or you know, do nothing with it, as the case may be. But, still.
I'm in such a good mood, I don't actually care about the horrible person thing. Ultimately, it doesn't really matter.

Also
Alche knows McNiceArms. This is irrelevant. In fact, I don't really have a reason to care. McNiceArms is as false and blown out of proportion as a fictional character, or a movie star. There's probably as much chance of anything developing there as there is of something developing with Ian Somerhalder. Okay, slightly greater chance given the age thing and the actually knowing him thing, and all that miscellaneous stuff.



I love my mom.