Maybe...
Maybe I jump to things too quickly.
Maybe I make decisions one way or the other before I really have time to know.
Kind of like... Well, I'll use an actual example instead of going all metaphorical
A few weeks, months, whatever ago, I totally wrote off Clacel
but I started talking to her the other day, and she's just way different than I thought
maybe if I hadn't been in such a hurry to put her inside a box and attach my little check mark for categorized, I would have actually talked to her sooner and found out that she's really a cool person- and maybe not so different from me, at least in some ways.
Everything always has to have a category, and place for it to belong where I can know what it is and what it is not and so on and so forth.
Maybe I rush into things in order to get them into a category.
Maybe that messes things up
Maybe if I hadn't been so unnerved by Natasha being in limbo a while back, thing would be different. Don't get me wrong- I'm not saying I want things to be different, but who knows, maybe they would be.
Sarah Dessen has females characters who always have problems like that, and they have some revelation of what they're doing, and with some work, they stop.
The thing is, I don't need a revelation, I already know, I just... don't know how to stop.
Maybe I'm wrong, maybe it's not a bad thing at all, and this rationalization is just a defense mechanism, a way to make things that are nonsensical seem to make sense.
Insanity- right?
In other news: Five more shows left. There's still time for you to come and see me be an asian princess.
