Now state lines is like a Berlin wall and there was no doubt about which side I was on

It breaks my fucking heart that we've been reduced to communicating via blog

I don't say things like, 'it breaks my heart' or 'it kills me' or 'pain in the ass' because next thing you know you end up having a heart attack, or with some sort of literal pain in your ass, but I can't find any other way to describe it

what are we doing? 

Sometimes it feels like I'm not going anywhere, and then I step back and look at the progress I'm making and I realize that I am moving in a distinguishable direction and its where I want to go, I just don't seem to be taking the rest of my relationships with me...