It's weird how calm I am about this

I am so superbly confused right now.



I'd really like to curl up on the couch with someone and watch my movie and then lay on the floor and just talk.
Even a telephone conversation would suffice.
I just want a real conversation. One where I'm not the only one talking or where I can really say what I mean to. Or maybe where I can just listen.


I'd odd feeling completely lost and yet at the same time feeling... grounded. I guess it's better than getting all upset, but it's a little unnerving.