For serious, I want to hold your hand

I stopped working on my history review to check blogs, just so I would feel like someone is around

Clacel's phone is apparently beyond the brink (as said blog checking revealed), so I won't be texting her

I would text Megan, or maybe Natasha, or anyone really, except it just doesn't sound appealing

plus, texting just slows the whole process down even more

but I want somebody around, at least figuratively 

I'm sitting downstairs on the couch, even though I constantly get distracted, because I like having my mom and sister around, so I'm not all confined and alone. 

I actually kind of want to go write in my journal, but if I go, I don't think I'll come back and finish this thing. 

I'm not going to school tomorrow.

Thank goodness. 

Still feel sick. Not cool. 

I need to find someone to study with. We don't actually have to study the same things, I just want to be in the same place, at the same time, working. If they want music, we can listen to music, and if they want it to be quiet, I can do that too. 

What an oddity I am. 

You know what I hate? 

The way that when people are confined in a situation with you, they'll talk to you almost like your friends, and once you're outside that confined situation, they hardly even acknowledge you. 

That's one of the only things I've learned in advocacy this year- that people will joke around and make fun of the stupid exercises they make us do, and then not even see you when they pass in the hallway.

It's kind of messed up, right?

If I'm ever that person, tell me. I don't want to be. 

Review.

Review.

Review.....

Unless maybe someone calls.